Time

Time

We all want it, but we all can't wait for it, and then its there and gone and we miss it.

I have felt lately that I don't have enough time and the time I had, I question if I spent it well.

Back in April we moved out to King George, VA. Its about 40 minutes southeast of where we were. David now has to commute for about an hour, but I think other than that it has been a great move.

The Church we attend is opening a satellite campus and David and I have decided to go to that one. It is much smaller and we are able to volunteer and get to know people on a more personal level. I have been asked to teach 4th/5th grade girls. I think it will be just what I need. Last week was my first class. Pretty chaotic, but I enjoyed it. Gives me a purpose and I hope that I can get to know some kids and help them in anyway.

A past coworker of mine died last weekend. I am going to her funeral today. She wasn't very old. I know that she is in Heaven, but it is still sad and it makes me think that this might be happening more in the next 10 years and I am not sure I am ready for it. Its just tough.

Hunter starts school on Monday. I think it is hard to let your first born go off to school, but I think the transition is harder for parents who keep their children at home until then. Hunter did go to preschool, but there is a big different to go 4 hours a day for 3 days to 8 hours a day for 5 days. He also wants to ride the bus. I have always told myself that I would never not let him do something because of my fears.

I know academically he is more than ready. He is a smart kid. I hope he keeps that in his school life. I don't want him to struggle like I did. Common sense wise....well that is another story. I also worry that I did not teach him the Christian values he will need as a 5 year old. I know....sounds a little crazy, but that is my purpose right now- to raise my children to love God. I am not sure I do that enough.

My parents are coming back to the States in a couple weeks. You know are family is different. We love each other very much, but we probably don't communicate face to face much. My mom and I are very close and I adore my brothers, but since they are in a different country as well, we don't communicate much (2 are 12 hour difference, one is 6/7 hour difference). I do realize though that I rely on my parents a lot. I rely on my mom as my friend, counselor, parental advice, spiritual adviser, the list could go on. I rely on my dad to help me with big projects (building things) and day to day advice, and he is my adventure buddy. If something were to happen to these 2 people- it would more than change my life. I am a very independent person, but that is because I have a strong family. I have 2 very confident parents who love me so much. I think when I have someone I know die, it reminds me that they will not be around forever and thats scary to me.

Time- may we cherish the time we have, understand that we have a lot of time with some and not very much with others, but no matter how small or big the relationship is, the time spent with them will impact your life. Lets just hope we all use it wisely.